Wife, Then Mama

I have a great life.  I really do.  I have a wonderful husband that loves me.  We just bought an awesome house (okay it has its not the most aesthetically pleasing house, but its big and cozy and has all the room we will ever need on a huge lot).  I have what I consider to be literally the best job in the world.  I don't have any chronic health issues or pain.  I have a wonderful family that I talk to on a regular basis and I know really cares about me.  Seriously I should be loving my life! I am only missing one thing.  A baby.  And for some reason missing this one thing overshadows all the good things I have been blessed with.  I hate how ungrateful I am when I have so many things that so many people don't have. 

It is stupid to get a flu shot. A systematic review of 51 studies involving 260,000 children age 6 to 23 months found no evidence that the flu vaccine is any more effective than a placebo. The Flu vaccines contain mercury One report shows that people who received the flu vaccine each year for 3 to 5 years had a 10-fold greater chance of developing Alzheimer’s disease than people who did not have any flu shots. Research shows that over-use of the flu-vaccine and drugs like Tamiflu and Relenza can actually alter flu viruses and cause them to mutate into a more deadly strain . I love Christmas movies I love Christmas specials (Rudolph, Frosty, etc.) even more For some reason I think watching Christmas specials on network channels is better than watching them on cable channels. I am really sad that I can't ever go visit my family at Christmas because Michael works at a retail store and can't get time off during the holidays. I really suck at crossword puzzles, except f...

On my phone, which only work at my house now, I get daily bible verses this was todays: 1 Timothy 6:6-10 by the way this is from my phone so the grammar is all screwed up Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

I spend a good portion of my freetime staring at a screen.  This time used to be pretty evenly split between the television set and the computer, but since we moved out we had to choose between the two for finacial reasons.  Obviously the internet won. That is my favorite thing about my sewing machine.  Its something entertaining to do that doesn't involve staring at a box of light and pictures.  I don't do it all the time, because I don't always have the supplies I need to make things, but I try to get out the sewing at least once a month.  Mostly I just make baby things, because stuff for me is to expensive to make, since it requires more fabric.  Plus when I have babies I can make them wear the stuff I made no matter how ridiculous it looks.  Baby stuff is also wonderful because it can usually be made quite quickly.  Most of sewing is actually cutting and pinning.  I try and use flannel alot because it doesn't really need to be pinne...

I am not a technology fan.  Okay, I kind of am, but its way more of a love/hate thing.  Take the internet for example.  I think its the devil, but have no idea how to function without it.  I also love the ability to bore random people with my random thoughts :)  But I could not get somewhere I have never been before without the internet.  I would never know how much money I had without the internet.  I would never see distant aquantainces babies without the internet.  I see its purpose and its useful. DVDs not so much.  Blu-Ray?  Not at all. I love that with a video cassette, it stays right where you stopped it.  I love that you are not forced to watch the FBI warning that no one listens to anyway so far as I can tell from looking at various people's movie collections.  I like the basicness of it.  I like the ease of recording from the TV onto the VHS.  One good thing about DVDs and Blu-Rays though.  Now al...

I love books. I have 3 bookshelves full of them, in my tiny little apartment. My husband is not impressed with this, or with my habit of picking up more whenever I have the money. I ALWAYS get them used, so its not a huge financial investment, just a space investment. Some books entertain, some books educate, and some really good books do both. Although I am mad at Amazon, due to the publishing of a disgusting book, I am going to untilize the little widget thing and list some of the highlights of my living room bookshelf. Sorry for the craptastic layout... I can't make it work today.

I love my job.  I get paid to do exactly what I hope to do for free as soon as my body can figure out how to get pregnant.  Most people can't say that. Best parts of my job: 1. Playing is pretty much my main activity. 2. An awesome excuse to buy toys and books. 3. My job literally consists of me relaxing on the floor for a portion of the day.  Babies like to play with you on their level.  And use you as a human jungle gym. 4. I can keep my house clean(ish) and husband fed while being "at" work.  5. Babies sleep half the day.  Although I love playing with her while she is awake, the fact that 4 out of 9 nine working hours I am free to be doing pretty much whatever I want is certainly a perk. 6. It makes me feel very loved.  When her mom drops her off and says she gets all happy and excited when she says they are going to my house it makes me happy :) 7. Sometimes kids really do say the darndest things.  Like yesterday when the 4 year ...

This is actually all about my husband, who I might not have ever married if it were not for a totaled car :) I didn't really date much before I got married, I wasn's a seriel dater like most high schoolers, I was more of the obsessed with one guy that doesn't really have any interest in me type.  Even my husband and I didn't date very much.  Mostly we were friends that made out alot for a while (I'm only a tiny bit of a whore, not really a whore I promise), like a month or two.  Poor Michael asked me to be his girlfriend like 3 times and I kept telling him no.  Not because I didn't like him, but because I had not really dated much before and had always gotten bored after like a month or less the two times I did have a boyfriend.  Plus he was supposed to be moving to Washington for school in a few months, and I didn't want a boyfriend that lived in another state.  My family lives in Idaho, and Michael and I were going to go over to visit one rainy nigh...

Okay, whenever my family would go around the table and say what they were thankful for, I would always say socks or underwear.  It kept me from having to get all sappy, plus they are really great. Reasons that undergarments are wonderful: 1. Less laundry.  You would have to wash your pants everytime you wore them if it were not for underwear.  Or at least I hope you would wash them everytime.  Washing your pants less makes them last longer, so underwear actually save you money (well unless you buy $20 underwear or something, but thats your own bad since you can buy them for about $1.25 at Wal-Mart) 2. Jeans.  Think about it: jeans would hardly exist without underwear.  No one in their right mind would ever want to wear them if underwear were not around.  3. Aestheically pleasing.  Lots of underwear are pretty adorable, especially if you go with the cheap ones at Wal-Mart.  Cartoon charactors, seasonal designs, they are pretty aweso...

I want children very much.  But had I conceived when I first started trying, both my birth experience and my life would be much more stressful. Since I have had all this time to study up on birth practices and statistics, I now know things that will make it much safer and gentler to give birth.  If I had immediately gotten pregnant, I would have given birth in a hospital, on my back, probably been given pitocin, and possibly an epidural.  My babies would have been vaccinated (a controversial post on that coming after Thanksgiving) on the regular schedule.  I would have used disposible diapers all the time.  Now I feel like I know better (this is NOT an insult to people who do the things I have just listed.  I just have learned the dangers of these things and feel its best to avoid them). Michael and I are much more settled right now then we were three years ago.  We have an apartment, he has a full-time job that pays decently and he loves, I work at...

Today in church the pastor was talking about thankfulness.  I am not good at being thankful.  Well thats not entirely true.  I am very appreciative of gifts I receive.  I am just not good at having a thankful spirit is more accurate. I tend to whine and complain about every little thing, driving my husband insane.  Apparently when Moses and the children of Isreal were complaining God smote them.  I don't remember the verse, but it said he was displeased.  I am thinking that whining still displeases God, so I am going to make an attempt to be more upbeat.  Especially since when I have kids I will expect them to have a cheerful disposition even when doing things that are less than entertaining.  So starting today, and ending on Thanksgiving, I am going to write about something I am thankful for everyday.  These will be in no particular order, except for the one I am planning for Thanksgiving is the most important, but otherwise, its...